Part 6

After my experience of being sent to a mental hospital, I will be the first to admit of how pissed off I was for having to endure that in the first fucking place when I was just doing what every mother would, and that's fight for her kid.

My mother refused at first to let me see my son as the judge had ordered as we still shared joint custody.

I felt so helpless and had no where to turn. I began to get depression and was having really bad anxiety attacks.

I had spoken with a couple people who had advise for me to bring up my childhood experiences and what had happened to me as a child, to show that my son shouldn't be there. I knew that had to be done, but I also knew I would have to prove everything against my parents, and also open up doors that I closed so long ago.

I remember sitting on my bed thinking of how I was going to prove everything. My parents tried to make it out as I had abandoned my son, and was never around. I had pictures which was the best type of evidence to prove her otherwise.

I anxiously awaited for my day in court. I had thought that with the photo evidence and everything that I had to prove my case, that I surely would win. I was waiting to have my satisfaction against them in court.
I still had weeks away, so I needed to find something to keep my mind occupied for the time being or I wouldn't have made it.

I poured myself in work. I would work double shifts most days and would fill my time drinking and making money. That was the only thing that really helped me keep my mind of things. I found being drunk would cause me to forget my problems, so drinking I would do on a daily basis.

I was becoming a different person over night. I was becoming more angry and was getting into fights more at work with other women, and home was not excluded either. That is where the worst fights would occur. My life was now flipping upside down and becoming a big mess all because I couldn't control my emotions.

It's now been awhile and I am still having issues over things, but I will go on to explain the rest of my story later. It's now time to get Kaitlyn and Layden ready to go to the dentist.
Until I write again, peace out!